The real glory of the grace

Dropped in the river flows, follow the water meet the estuary, then go into the ocean. This the real glory of the grace

"When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation. When I found I couldn't change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn't change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family. Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world." - Unknown Monk (1100AD).

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Dalam debu dan bersama angin

Terhenti pada sudut jam, hamparan rasa terpajang bebas di hati. Apakah ini?
Matahari merangkulku dengan panas cahaya yang erat, jujur ini membuat seluruh tubuhku terbakar, sangat terik! Butiran keringat membelai paras ku.
Dalam kekosongan kolaborasi warna tengah menciptakan rasa,
rasa yang begitu dalam dan tak bisa diungkapkan. Ada apa?
Aku lelah bermain dengan intuisi, aku lelah untuk mengerti, aku lelah untuk mati.
Aku... tanpa nada tanpa suara... kekosongan yang isi,.... isi dalam kosong.
Kini, bolehkah aku berteriak? tapi untuk apa? 

Kupalingkan wajah, kulihat kedua sayap.... dapatkah aku kembali terbang? rasa apa ini? menekanku begitu dalam, dan membangkitkan sesak di dada. Jatuh terlutut.... menengadahkan paras ke atas..... merintih.... 'Tuhan...' 
Aku terperangkap dalam rasa yang tak terjamah, lepaskan aku dari jerat ini. 

Jalan menapak ... dalam alunan nada, melambai bersama..... memeluk..... dan mencair........

nada itu...... selalu menimbulkan air di mataku, tanpa pernah aku temukan....... jawaban dari 'mengapa' 

Terbang bersama angin...... berhenti singah, dan melayang...... terlalu kecil untuk di tangkap, dan terlalu ringan untuk di genggam..... debu....... 

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headaches

 

oh God, whatever its, please don't make me be selfish

everyone is entitled to be happy, as well as myself

don't let me ruin the happiness of others

although they sometimes not make me feel happy 

please help me.... help me to be patient... 

I beg U plz....

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Ash Wednesday in My Self...... hmmm today

In the Roman Catholic Church, Ash Wednesdayis the first day of Lent, the season of preparation for the resurrection of Jesus Christ on Easter Sunday.

Now is Ash Wednesday. if u think I must go to church and get the ash in my forehead? 

God if U know that everyday I always regret all the mistakes that I have done? yes I sure that U know all about me. I just scared that its just a warning event, or remember celebrate, or only an alarm for self introspection before easter day, or if just a tradition? ok no complain again...... I know the answer is DEPEND .... and I walk in my awareness..... and I never cared for who i am. 

No body perfect event if u can do anything in this world, event you got everything in your life.... 

so... I'm sorry for all my mistakes that I has done, I know... I try hard to be good all my life..... I run too far to see my self.... and may be causes you hurt, I know. I m sorry...

Ash.... 

what if we die our body will be ashes? 

Ash.... we just like ash

Well... I decided  go to Kathedral churh after work..... but don't ask me why.....I just wanted to see, observe, feel, and soluble in that atmosphere...  may be its can remind me again..... or... may be...... it make me feel good..... or... idk... This is very different from the previous, cause .....  I have freed my soul to be free... flying around the awareness.....  without any restrictions, but ......
when i can feel U,  God in my life..... in any form, in any atmosphere, in any culture, tradition.... or ceremony..... its the best time for me to give thanks....  

If you ever feel, no onething that you want to complain in this life?  :)

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Forgive

To hate another is to hate yourself.

We all live within the one Universal Mind.

What we think about another, we think about ourselves.

If you have an enemy, forgive him now.

Let all bitterness and resentment dissolve.

You owe your fellow man love; show him love, not hate.

Show charity and goodwill toward others

and it will return to enhance your own life

in many wonderful ways. ~ Brian Adams 

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Bouncing Mellow

bouncing mellow in my fantasy
believe its  time will be come
when heart should be always singing
la la la la la.... la la

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at Coffee Cafe

"pulled up at this place :)
not too crowded, with the strains of soft instrument music. 

soluble in a capucino n time..... with a book in my hand .....
start to burn my head."

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It Feel like ...

It FELLS like:
Lying on the super soft mattress, with blanket of hyper soft and fresh fragrant, in a room that has a large glass window. Looking at the green park area with the beautiful plants. wet grass and drizzling wafted. Enjoy the soft scent of lavender aromatherapy and accompanied by a soft instruments, hmmm.... feel peace floated in the every twang. With my lover, enjoy the peacefulness of life, and embodies the dreams, then sleeping ...

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miss u

I see the large of darkness skies 

are bombarded with a million stars,
fun with flickering light. beautiful ... 

make me frozen in the night 

looking upstar 

then stunned ....

I miss u dad, all the time with u
fished on the beach together
swim in the pool ...
go around the town ...
your tickled on the bed every morning
hmm... 5 years already passed

then fell asleep ...
'til the morning comes
good morning ... :)

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FInaLLy

I know the answer

makasih yah nurani ...

everything will be ok

n life must be go on

i don't want to push again

hope your happiness

bless, and perpetual

so... bye... bye..... 
my lovely friend

I will go ... 

I willl jump to catch the star with my heart n my soul with my love n my peace i belive i can... one day may be we can say "hi" again

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I don't want to be a loser

If I can run, I want to run away from all this mess 

but I can not run, I don't want to be a loser

In this mess I was looking for a silence 

and in a silence I feel a lot of chaos 

God, allow me to rest ...

everything is melting in a vacuum 

and I ... could not see anymore 

I can not explain it again ...

nothing more than this ... 

"silence"

but, I really smile...
although it was messy
although i have tear on my cheek
all come and go ...
all that remains just the meaning
I dont want anything ...
I take a breath ...
release ...
just breath, just a sigh ...
I live because of breath
and I'm still breathing 
outside is crowded ...
Inside is quiet ...
quiet ... n silence ... (I like)
"I accept all to be my sincere devotion in this life""
now all gone in silence ...

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Curi Waktu

Curi waktu sebentar, 

selagi masih bisa nakal

 

 















@ pic: empty for life by dewitsai

setelah semalam mabuk mencari ide, 

sambil berkongko ria dgn sahabat lama 

dan setelah lelah otak ini berkontraksi berkali2 ..... 

di tambah pagi ini masih di hajar deadline

yang ngak kenal tenggang rasa... 

plus baku tegang antara otak kanan dan kiri 

yang sama kuatnya. 

hanya satu yang tersisa yaitu nafas.

mo marah juga ngak bisa... 

lagian jg percuma,

mo nangis apalagi, 

boro2 air mata keluar...
cuma satu rasanya

yaitu capek luar biasa
email2 dan empati temenpun 

dah kubakar dan melebur menjadi debu... 

trs kutiup....  terbang.....  

bukan tak menyimak

hanya ingin kosong

lelah ini telah membunuh rasa, 
baik cinta, benci, lapar, siang, malam dan semuanya....
kembali bercinta lewat karya yang dipaksakan, 
bentuk pelarian minimal untuk bertahan.

Aku tengah melepaskan semuanya ... 
untuk menjadi kosong.
 

nah sekarang kembali ke deadline ...

sebelum di pentung satpam

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Advices

That advices will always be in my heart no one can know wrapped and still respected Living Imagination! 

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Just One thing

One thing has made me sad
One thing has made me learn
One thing not must to be imposed
One thing has added a wound

If I could speak, I would to say
"why its must be happen?, why it must be created? "
Just like a toy. A public discourse in life.

"forgive me, who could not keep my own heart
who has let myself to cry, and laugh out loud in the air
pardon me, drowning in a variety of problems
and dancing pleasure in deliverance.
I just want to live good without hurting and hurt "

I soared united with the nature
intercourse with the day and the night
secure in the blank wall, kissing with silence
whatever its, thankful for my life 

above all things that fill my hearts 

for the sun that always shining with a smile 

over the moon that shines bright every night
to all my friends and my enemies
for all contents in the nature 

and for peace, who always knitting in my heart
 

thank God for one thing

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Coretan sore hari

pusing time!

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Aku Merasa Bergetar

aku merasa  bergetar 

degubpan lain tengah 
menyentuh hatiku

berdebar dan berdeham

apakah ini?

perasaan yang  sama , perasaan yang  nyaman 

lalu terbuai dalam dekapan sunyi

bersama angan

hingga terlelap di kasur nyaman

dan bangun kesiangan :)

apakah juga harus diutarakan?

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