I Will Burst.... i think :(

Feels full, hard, cramped. breath began to choked, like a balloon that will burst, but not yet, very congested, veins in the brain as if clogged. silent ... ... and tense ... ... ... I was not strong even if only to stand up straight, just look in the empty eyes. "Give me the energy of love, God,  so I could love and share again" I want run very fast on empty streets, until I lifted and fly in the universal emptiness that will be created. Drift with the wind. I want scream and cry as much on the stretch of silent beach. Leaving my voice shout collide with the wind and waves, with tears melt in the sea.

My soul whispers to my self: "let's finish up... one by one ... This step will be light, dont forget to smile, everything will be ok." God, plz hug me tonight..... Z....z...z...z.zzzz...