headaches

 

oh God, whatever its, please don't make me be selfish

everyone is entitled to be happy, as well as myself

don't let me ruin the happiness of others

although they sometimes not make me feel happy 

please help me.... help me to be patient... 

I beg U plz....

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Ash Wednesday in My Self...... hmmm today

In the Roman Catholic Church, Ash Wednesdayis the first day of Lent, the season of preparation for the resurrection of Jesus Christ on Easter Sunday.

Now is Ash Wednesday. if u think I must go to church and get the ash in my forehead? 

God if U know that everyday I always regret all the mistakes that I have done? yes I sure that U know all about me. I just scared that its just a warning event, or remember celebrate, or only an alarm for self introspection before easter day, or if just a tradition? ok no complain again...... I know the answer is DEPEND .... and I walk in my awareness..... and I never cared for who i am. 

No body perfect event if u can do anything in this world, event you got everything in your life.... 

so... I'm sorry for all my mistakes that I has done, I know... I try hard to be good all my life..... I run too far to see my self.... and may be causes you hurt, I know. I m sorry...

Ash.... 

what if we die our body will be ashes? 

Ash.... we just like ash

Well... I decided  go to Kathedral churh after work..... but don't ask me why.....I just wanted to see, observe, feel, and soluble in that atmosphere...  may be its can remind me again..... or... may be...... it make me feel good..... or... idk... This is very different from the previous, cause .....  I have freed my soul to be free... flying around the awareness.....  without any restrictions, but ......
when i can feel U,  God in my life..... in any form, in any atmosphere, in any culture, tradition.... or ceremony..... its the best time for me to give thanks....  

If you ever feel, no onething that you want to complain in this life?  :)

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Just statement

if you give me a rope, I will jump with my feets

if you give me a fence, I will climb with my hands

if you give me a wall, I will destroy with my mind

if you give me a blow, I will hit with my emotions

I am a women, not need a cage to stay

but 

if you give me a smile, i give u hug to make u happy

if you give me your respect, I will there to adore you 

if you give me your pure heart to love, I will there to be with u

if you give me your loyalty, I will give you my devotion

I am a women, need peace place to put my heart 

and

if you want to be happy, u must know how to make happy

if you want to be love, u must know how to love

if you want to be eternal, u must know how to be eternal 

cause we never get if we dont know how to get all

life is to learn, and experience make us rich

Do not live in a pleasant lie, but live in honesty, even if it hurts

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